Posted on | April 11, 2011 | 11 Comments
Pretty much since the first day that you’re pregnant (and forced, face first down the rabbit hole of baby information) you are constantly bombarded with the pressure to breast feed. There was even an entire class that came with our prenatal course where we had to sit and brainstorm why breastfeeding was the best option.
You didn’t really have to convince me. I was gung-ho on running with the Breast is Best pack.
Unfortunately it wasn’t that easy.
Despite books and classes and support and teachers and more nurses than I care to count handling me in the maternity ward, someone, somewhere failed to mention that:
a) sometimes you just can’t produce enough milk to feed your baby
b) it can be horribly, HORRIBLY PAINFUL.
Feeding him became unpleasant at best.
Now, I am PERFECTLY aware that it SHOULDN’T be horribly painful.
But I’m sorry it was. I can honestly say that it was more painful than labour:
I still don’t know what it was, something to do with a sluggish letdown and probably not enough developed glands to adequately feed the appetite of the grown buffalo that my son had. I think he adapted some sort of super leech-like vacuum reflex to get what he could which made things even worse.
I would even be in excruciating pain for hours after a feeding.
Unfortunately I fell into the routine of using it to get Jack to fall asleep. I was terrified that giving it up would mean that he would NEVER SLEEP AGAIN.
I tried to find solutions to increase milk and decrease pain. But nothing helped.
I tried experts, but no one was able to give me an answer that I hadn’t already tried, or that was helpful at all.
*some of the tamer remedies I tried.
I wound up supplementing with “evil” formula and finally weening him at 10 months.
It was just as, if not more, painful the last time I fed as the first.
Luckily, he didn’t even seem to care.
I completely advocate breastfeeding your child for their health and yours. I’m just sharing my story because never once did anyone tell me that it wasn’t a possibility for a healthy mom NOT to be able to feed her baby properly. I only found out through talking to other moms that it’s more common than I thought.
During the process I did find some BONUS reasons to breastfeed! And here they are to end my story.
*Chill out. I put a pot holder down first…
When Rowan was born, I was prescribed domperidone, blessed thistle and fenugreek by my midwife that seems to be making a difference. At least It’s not painful (past the first week) and there is actually milk.
That’s the story of my boobs, since you asked.